pOst-1st HeLLwEek... & a bitchy emaiL frOm a ToTaL strAnger! >_

Posted by catmille13 at 01:42 PM on October 19, 2006.

he3x... im  stiLL in the "state Of shOck" due tO my stat1 prefinaLs Last friday... and tO think its aLready tuesday, hek3x...

Luckily... (i guess) i OnLy have 2 exams this week... at Least i can sOmewhat breathe... cOz there was a pOint Last week that i... ehehehe... did burst! yikes! everyOne in my dOrm was... shOcked cOz Of aLL the peeps in my fLoor... i... the "kinder/dOrm cLown" wOuLd suddenLy deLiver this Line... "pLease Lang... pakihinaan naman bOses ñO" in a sOft... yet VERY SERIOUS tOne w/c made my yOunger dOrmates... scared? Let's just say i freaked them Out a bit since i was NOT knOwn tO be sOoO sensitive tO nOise when it's my "study periOd."

sOrry sweeties if i scared the heck Out Of y'aLL... am just stressed Out... he3x...

i guess there are times that i dO have the right tO be seriOus naman... i can't be a happy-gO-Lucky girL aLL the time... Or eLse... i wOuLd definiteLy fLunk a LOT Of my subjects, hek3x...

On tO my 2nd stOry...

i was checking my maiL yesterday when i saw a VERY INTRIGUING emaiL w/ a titLe... "camille..."

i REALLY DO NOT KNOW the sender (i did check her frienster accOunt after reading it)...

and the message she sent me was... Let's just say...

VERY2X OFFENSIVE... AND VERY IMMATURE!

the shOrt message indicates that she tOtaLLy thinks... im a whOre?!?

c'mOn! i DON'T EVEN KNOW HER... and nOw she's Out tO diss me and my famiLy... tsk3x...

then i reaLized that the message wasn't fOr me... i guess she was suppOsed tO send the message tO anOther girL whOse name was aLso camiLLe... tsk3x... hOw stupid...

even if the nOte wasn't intended fOr me... i was stiLL Offended... Of cOurse i was REALLY SHOCKED that a stranger wOuLd suddenLy DISS ME AND MY PARENETS which is reaLly insuLting...

mOraL Of the story:

NEVER SENT HATE EMAILS... yOu might send them tO the wrOng persOn...

and make things WORSE!

and tO that certain girl whO mistakenLy emaiLed me that Offensive nOte...

"As a dOctOr... yOu are INDEED a VERY IMMATURE ONE... dissing peOpLe in emaiLs... i pity yOu... that shOws that yOu are a VERY INSECURE AND IMMATURE PERSON... sending yOur grudges thrOugh emaiL. TeLL it tO her straight if i were yOu... sO that yOu wOn't cOmmit the same mistake that yOu did tO me. Instead Of having yOur prOblem fixed... yOu'LL just have MORE FOES... GOOD RIDDANCE TO YOU!!!"

***heck yeah... i can be a b*tch tOo if sOmeOne Offended my famiLy... i knOw yOu guys wOuLd dO that tOo if this happened...***

Currently listening to: nada...
Currently reading: a friend's bLog...
Currently watching: my yOutube vids...
Currently feeling: irritated

LovE cOffeE?!?

Of EmPtinEss & rEgrEtS... :(

Posted by catmille13 at 10:12 AM on October 23, 2006.

i never thOught that i wOuLd suddenly feeL sOoO empty...

i dunnO... maybe i'm just tired...

maybe i'm just sLeepy... Or bOred...

Or maybe i'm making Lots Of excuses again... tsk3x... >_<

why am i feeLing sOoO empty?

Ok... i'm gOin' back tO the SAME questiOn...

is it because i CANNOT have everything that i've wished for?

is it because i'm REALLY NERVOUS abOut my acads that i became sOmewhat NUMB tO the effects Of pOssibLe academic dOwnfaLL (again)?

Or is it because Of REGRETS...

i guess... err... aLL?!?

yikes!

maybe i feeL empty... On the LoveLife department??? wahahaha... nOw THAT'S SHALLOW...

but...

am i regretting the fact that i'd Let anOther... uhmm... "prOspect" mOve SLOWLY away frOm me since i wasn't treating him seriOusly? thinking his' intentiOns fOr me are JUST JOKES?!? Or am i regretting the fact that a certain "sOmeOne" whO actuaLLy cared fOr me (aLLegedLy) befOre suddenLy... Let his' feeLings fOr me tO thinLy vanish in the air since i DID NOT ACTUALLY HAD THE EFFORT tO just even keep in tOuch with him?!? 

haii... when wiLL i ever Learn???

when wiLL i ever Learn tO Let gO...

when wiLL i ever Learn tO take sOmeOne Or sOmething that's suppOsed tO be impOrtant seriOusLy...

and when wiLL i ever Learn tO NOT WALLOW in my mistakes & regrets??? :'s

***the sOng "PanaLangin" by mOonstar88 suddenLy pOps in my head...***

"PanaLangin kO sa habang buhay... makapiLing ka, makasama ka... 'yan ang panaLangin kO. At hindi papayag, ang pusOng itO... mawaLa ka sa'king piLing... mahaL kO iyOng dinggin."

haii... im sOoO sOrry ____... that i tOok yOur... i dunnO... "yOur kindness" as a jOke...

nOw i'm regretting that i JUST Let yOu... sLip away... sOrry...

and when the time cOmes that yOu'LL be abLe tO fOrgive me... then maybe... just maybe...

i'LL STOP regretting aLready. :'S

Currently listening to: PanaLangin by mOonstar88
Currently reading: my current entry...
Currently watching: PanaLangin videO...
Currently feeling: lonely

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