tEarY-EyEd biTch...
Posted by catmille13 at 06:06 PM on February 17, 2007.
i dO sOund sOoO bitter right?!
and yeah... i ADMIT it... i AM STILL BITTER...
i stiLL can't mOve On... hOw Lame is that?!?
gOt a bit wee tipsy (fOr the 1st time in my 18 years Of LowLy existence!) On... Of aLL the days... VaLentine's day! harharhar!!! hOw irOnic rrriiight?!?
i can't beLieve that untiL nOw... i am stiLL waLLowing On my thOughts, sOmetimes suddenLy staring intO space, and i am stiLL... nO... nOt crying... but weeping...
nO One wOuLd beLieve that Last statement cOz OnLy a few had actuaLLy seen me cry... cOz i wasn't as emOtiOnaL as the Others... i NEVER cry when i watch thOse "dramatic, tear-jearker" mOvies nOr On thOse sOap Operas... i was aLways bein' tagged as "manhid."
but that's what they thOught...
yOu'LL NEVER see me crying (except when i have thOse unfOrtunate bOuts Of dysmenOrrhea) cOz i DO NOT cry in pubLic, hahaha! tOugh Luck if yOu dO see me!
but it aLL gOes dOwn tO this...
yes... i am stiLL BITTER...
i am stiLL weeping...
i am NOT over him... Or maybe it was IT...
i am stiLL feeLing the pain...
and what's wOrse?!
i am BEGINNING to feeL numb...
why may yOu ask?
hmm... cOz i've experienced it Over and Over again! maybe i'm beginning tO get used tO the fact that i aLways end up Losing and instead Of acquiring that sO caLLed "happiness," i am getting mOre frustrated and mOre insecure by the minute!
hahaha... i am starting tO sOund Like a bitch!
cOz harharhar... Life's f*ckin' unfair... sOciety's gOin superficiaL secOnd by secOnd! it DOES NOT MATTER if yOu're nice Or smart anymOre... as Long as yOu're D*MN pretty and rich... yOu get the guys yOu want... even if yOu have the IQ Of a 3 year oLd! d*mn this whoLe thing! d*mn thOse superficiaL peOpLe! D*MN it!!!
nOw i am starting tO beLieve that the statement, "nice girLs finish Last" is indeed true!
haii... i hOpe this remOrse feeLing Of mine wOuLd just simpLy gO away... Or i might end up bein'...
a teary-eyed bitch!!! :'s
Currently listening to: pumping pLutO's remake Of 'di baLe na Lang
Currently reading: my stupid entry...
Currently watching: ...
Currently feeling: numb