Fragile
Posted by catmille13 at 02:37 PM on September 1, 2007.
I feel so helpless… I feel very fragile.
Lots of unfortunate events suddenly rushed my way.
It’s like I had a head-on collision with…
Bad luck.
I should have been more careful…
I should have been more vigilant…
I shouldn’t have been too complacent…
I shouldn’t have shown an air of vulnerability…
I should have had focused on things…
I shouldn’t have liked someone whom I really shouldn’t have had in the first place…
I shouldn’t have expected a lot…
I should have had calmed down…
I should have been over it…
But I can’t.
I was scared, I was hurt, I was disappointed, I was traumatized, I was shocked, I was saddened.
And what do you know…
Everything happened in just a single week.
How unfortunate… right?
There are things that shouldn’t have happen…
And there are things that I should have done.
I feel weak…
I’ve cried but I still can’t get everything off my chest.
I want to forget everything…
My hope is hanging by a single thread…
I am like the last leaf clinging gingerly to a tree branch that with a sudden gust of autumn wind will helplessly fall…
Without anyone to catch or even mind me.
It’s strange but I really feel so fragile…
Can somebody save me?
Anyone… please?
Currently listening to: rivermaya
Currently reading: old blog entries
Currently watching: random tv shows
Currently feeling: fragile
My "Intriguing" Random Thoughts... :P
Posted by catmille13 at 04:08 PM on September 27, 2007.
Yeah… sometimes… we do have these little random thoughts popping in our devilish little brains…
Well… here are some of my own, hahaha… :D
1. Why is learning Nihonggo fascinating for me?
-Is it because I love how it sounds… or is it because I can use it when me and my housemates talk about err… secrets… uhmm… crushes… and things that SHOULD be kept in the four corners of our abode, harharhar!
2. For UPLB students… What is the FIRST thing that pops in your head when you here some peeps saying: “Tara friend… S.EX tayo…”
a. “Tara friend… Shanghai EXpress tayo…” (eatery yan)
b. Hehehe… you become shocked and think it literally means… *lol* ;P
3. Why do I ALWAYS find gay guys hot?
-Is it because they’re meticulously clean and fresh? Or is it because I’m “unconsciously” seeking for a new shopping partner? Wahahaha!
4. Is being a fashionista a good thing or a bad thing?
5. What’s the secret of those young-looking instructors in UPLB to still stay looking young like students?
-Isn’t it that instructors get a LOT of headache from students already… but they still manage to look young! How do they do it? Damn those good genes, hehehe!
6. Why do I ALWAYS trip or slip in almost every part of the campus?
-Is it because of my very poor eyesight? (Yeah, I’m actually one of those three blind mice, joke!) Or is it due to my weak ankles? Or maybe I’m just REALLY clumsy and unlucky? *yikes* 
7. Despite the fact that I sooo LOVE the color purple… why do I own just a few purple-colored stuff?
-Okaaay… now that’s a dumb question, next! hehehe! ;P
8. Why is Starbucks sooo addicting?
-Does their coffee contain something addictive like marijuana in it? (Kidding!!!)
Coz I’ve tried to NOT drink coffee for a month… and I ended up bitching around, hahaha! ;D
9. Is it okay to feel really happy when almost everyone tells me that I’m a DevCom freshie?
-Hahaha… is it a guilty pleasure of mine to be secretly gleeful that for some peeps, I still look young? (ohh… I sound yabang tuloy! ^.^) Or is it because I’m really loathing ‘bout being an upperclassman Agri student until now? (Bad Camille… BAD Camille! )
10. What should I choose… Agri or Devcom?
-My heart says DevCom… but my logical side... err my brain dictates Agri… Damnit! :s
Hahaha… you think I’ll stop with ONLY 10 random thoughts?! Nope nope nope! Hwehehehe! 
11. Why do I hate AND like this err… certain person at the same time?
-He teases me ALL the time… which REALLY irritates me… but he’s also nice to me in a way… huwaat?!? Then I would always say: “Wasp-wa daikirai… demo… Watashi-o dakeshimete Wasp-chan!”
(In english: “ I sooo hate you Wasp… but… Can you hug me?&rdquo
Hahaha!
*I think I shouldn’t have posted this…*
12. Until now, why am I still single?
-Is it because I look snooty? Is it because I’m REALLY a “sister/kabarkada material” girl? Or is it because I’m having too much fun being single?
I think I have an answer for this question though… wahahaha! =^.^=
Lastly…
13. Why do I LOOOOVE blogging about personal stuff? Hwehehehe! =^.^=
Currently listening to: 60's music :)
Currently reading: my current post, haha...
Currently watching: nadaah...
Currently feeling: silly
