Away... Or Stay?
Posted by catmille13 at 11:53 AM on October 5, 2007.
Though I want you,
I have to stay away.
Though I love you,
I know I must not say.
Though I need you,
I am wishing you’ll just move away…
Because if not…
I’ll just ask you to stay. L
Currently listening to: Sili Song by Fatal Posporos
Currently reading: The Bloomfields' threads
Currently watching: err... MYX?
Currently feeling: lonely
The Human Stress Ball...
Posted by catmille13 at 09:05 AM on October 26, 2007.
yeah... THAT is basically my job nowadays... err... actually for the WHOLE sem...
seeing your 2 older sisters cry over their a**hole ex-boyfriends who've treated them badly despite the fact that your sisters were waaaay decent...
being perpetually teased by a friend of yours to release his' stress... allowing yourself to be mercilessly mocked by him...
being shouted at by your older brother when he gets furious over petty fights between your older sisters and even on the smallest things such as not being able to watch his' fave tv show because you've asked him to fetch you...
having to stay wide awake while (even if you really wanna doze off already) having your friends pour their hearts out over problems that you yourself is actually undergoing...
having to listen to your dad for the first time, releasing his' own frustrations over his son (your brother) for not exactly following his' footsteps and subtly implying that you'll have to take the place of your brother and follow what your dad dreams of for him (which will surely make your dad absolutely grateful) in exchange for your own passion to be suppressed for eternity...
having to listen to your mom tell you that she is secretly frustrated over your dad and your older siblings...
having friends tell you that it might be better to follow your dad than to follow your own heart when it comes to career choices...
etc etc etc...!!!
i am not complaining being a human stress ball... absorbing the blows, the emotional stress that my loved ones pour out on me...
i am grateful that my loved ones trust me very much...
but sometimes... hey, i've got my own set of problems too...
can you guys just lay off of me sometimes?
can't you all get the hint that sometimes...
i can't help you because i just don't wanna...
because it tires me and it pains me to see you all suffer...
but in return, you guys make me suffer too...
you guys pass the burden on me and it seriously makes me sick...
i know it's kinda selfish but sometimes...
please let my heart and my brain rest, even for just a sec, think twice before you unload your problems on me...
because i do get tired too y'know, i'm only human... 
Currently listening to: my ate, sharing her problems...
Currently reading: my multiply entries...
Currently watching: nadaah...
Currently feeling: tired
