My "Glory Days" are Over :(
Posted by catmille13 at 06:30 PM on February 29, 2008.
I can’t help but ponder on THAT thought.
As I was blogging this, I was listening to the old videos of St. Scho Marikina Highschool Glee Club’s performance videos… the group that I WAS a member of back in highschool…
Was… L
Such a painful word for me… as such that I do feel that I am one of those “has-beens”
I was a member of a very prestigious chorale then now what?!?
Sometimes, when I reminisce through those “glory days” of mine, it actually made me really sad in a way…
Considered one of the best… then what happened next?
Honestly, my voice had a DRASTIC change through the past 3 “glee club-less” years…
People back then would believe me in a heartbeat when I say I was a glee club member but now… I know people are scoffing behind my back and saying…
“You’re a glee club member in highschool? Reeeeally…”
(While rolling their eyes in disbelief or laughter… or maybe both)
I really do miss singing for the glee club… but reality slapped me hard…
waay HARD on the face…
Telling me to move on and treasure these wonderful memories of me singing, of me being a member of one of the best highschool chorales that lest will be a family that I will so treasure forever.
I was expecting that something would happen to me in college, something great…
Like being a chorale member… again…
But alas… fate has its’ own devilish twists…
Lady Luck then suddenly stopped smiling at me…
I lost the voice I was treasuring for years… a talent that perhaps diminished due to the sudden halt in rigorous training.
Bitter, yes… quite frankly… but what can I do?
I now thrive in mediocrity… my cherished gift has tarnished… I lost it!
My heart breaks as I blog this… but maybe this is the only thing that I can do to maybe ease THAT pain for now… that frustration of not being able to sing as nice as before.
I am in a band but even so, people now belittle me… saying tactless remarks such as:
“Talaga… glee club ka pala?”
“Let her sing na lang instead Camille (while pointing to the girl next to me), she can do it better eh (with the matching “apologetic” smile).”
“Eh abot mo pa ba ito?”
“Ang hina naman ng boses mo eh.”
“Kaya mo ba talaga itong song na’to?”
Or maybe my pride just can’t take all these…
Should I just cry…
Naah… it NEVER works for cases such as this. L
Until now, I admit, I STILL can’t let go of my “glory days,” the period/s in my life that made me feel so special, so admired, so loved…
Everyone was with me…
But now… where are they?
Shallow whining… I know… that’s the only thing that I do best now.
Will I ever get over this pain? L
Currently listening to: SSAM glee club vids
Currently feeling: sad